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Seers, prophets, personal prophecy 3 of 3, Seers/prophets

4/18/2026

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Hi all,
 
What is a Seer? What is a prophet? 
 
We are told this in I Samuel 9:9:"...he that was beforetime called a Seer is now called a Prophet." 
 
Seers/prophets are gifted to see into the Lord's realm from time to time, as needed according to the Lord's will. In I Samuel 3, the Lord called Samuel by name:"Samuel, Samuel" and the young boy thought Eli the Priest was calling him. After Eli told him it was the Lord, verse 10 says:"Then the Lord came and stood as He had at the other times, and said:"Samuel, Samuel." In v15 it says Samuel was afraid to tell Eli the vision of the Lord. Verse 21 says from that point on the Lord appeared to Samuel as The Word of the Lord. 
 
Samuel was the first of the seers/prophets to the nation of Israel. He was the last Judge. Previous Judges included Deborah, Gideon, Samson, and others. Samuel was the last judge and first Seer/Prophet of the new nation of Israel. He set Saul as their first king. He set the stage for all prophets to Israel that followed him, for the Lord appeared to them as 'The Word of the Lord' as well. 
 
But seers aren't just visited by the Lord, their gift to see into the realm of the Lord is also demonstrated in the ministry of Elisha, as seen in II Kings 6:13-17. Elisha and his assistant were in a city surrounded by an enemy army of chariots, and his assistant was very afraid. Elisha prayed that the Lord also open his eyes to see what he saw, which was an angelic army also surrounding them. Elisha saw the angelic realm as well as the natural realm of the king's army surrounding the city. 
 
When I was a teen or 16 or 17 the Father told me He had called me to be a Seer, using that term, and that was my call before that of teacher, pastor, and apostle. (Next week the definition of an apostle and their ministry) This is how it is most often for me, like an overlay of 2 dimensions, with my eyes wide open I see the natural realm and the Lord's realm. 
 
What defines a New Testament Seer/Prophet? 
The foundation upon which we build is from Ephesians 3:1-6 which says in part:"To reveal the mystery...which was kept secret from ages and generations, but is now revealed by His holy apostles and prophets by the Spirit; That the Gentiles should be fellow heirs, of the same body, and sharers together of the promise in Christ of the gospel." 
 
This tells us the first function of apostles and prophets is to share revelation from the Lord concerning the grace given to (we) non-Jews. This is why prophets and teachers are closely related, as seen in Acts 13:1-3:"And there were certain prophets and teachers gathered...for fasting and prayer..." A prophet's main function isn't to give prophetic words, but to share revelation concerning the mysteries of Christ. Teaching and being a prophet are closely related to apostles and prophets because they are charged with revealing deeper mysteries about the work of Jesus and His ways, and giving that revelation to the body of Christ.
 
IF someone calls themselves an apostle or prophet, their foundational ministry is to teach and share revelation concerning what Jesus has done for us. If they don't have those deeper mysteries, if all they do is have 'prophetic' dreams, visions and words - you need to question whether they are truly a prophet (or apostle). 
 
How is someone prophesying different from being a prophet? 
Acts 11:27-28 tells us:"At that time some prophets came from Jerusalem to Antioch, and one of them, Agabus, revealed by the Spirit that a great famine would happen..."
This shows us a prophet will have predictive words about things in nature, in this case a famine. 
 
In Acts 21:10-11 we are told this of Agabus:"...he came and took Paul's belt and tied up his own hands and feet and said this; 'This is what the Holy Spirit says; The man who owns this belt will have this done to him by the Jews in Jerusalem and then they will turn him over to the Gentiles (Romans).'"
 
Here we see a prophet also has predictive words about the actions of governments, including at times as it relates to individuals. A prophet in these New Testament times will first of all teach and/or share about the mysteries of Christ in us and His work on the cross, resurrection, and ascension. They will see into the Spirit realm. They will have predictive words about nature, governments, and for individuals. 
 
Compare that to Paul's definition of simple prophecy of I Corinthians 14:3:"For one who prophesies gives a person a word building them up, exhorting or comforting them." We can see a much greater depth to that of one called as a Seer/Prophet. Unfortunately, some have made great names of themselves thinking because they prophesy regularly, they are a prophet. The first time a person gives a simple prophecy it may be nothing more than saying to a person; "I sense the Lord loves you." But if they have much experience, their prophecies may be longer and more detailed - not because they are a prophet, but because they are more experienced moving in that gift. Some have thought because they do move regularly in simple prophecy they are a prophet - but actually they are just more experienced in the gift. 
 
Remember also that other manifestations of the Spirit combine with the gifts. So that a person who may see a mini-vision of a person or situation while praying for someone, which is the discerning of spirits, may also give them a prophecy of encouragement. They aren't a prophet, the Spirit just moved through them to minister what was needed to that person. A prophet's main ministry is that of teaching and sharing about what Christ did for us, seeing in the Spirit, and giving predictive words about nature and governments.
 
Wisdom about personal prophecy
We can learn about personal prophecy from this exchange between Agabus and Paul in Acts 21. First, Agabus said:"This is what the Holy Spirit says." Simple prophecy is very often something perceived in one's spirit that they then put into words. More of an interpretation of what they sense in their spirit what the Lord is saying. A prophet will hear the Holy Spirit Himself. This most often happens to me, and as I've taught before from examples in Acts, when the Holy Spirit Himself speaks it is specific, concise, and direct. (Acts 8:29; 10:19) There is no vagueness nor ambiguity to it when you hear the Holy Spirit Himself speak to you. Agabus heard the Holy Spirit's specific word to Paul. 
 
Agabus gave Paul very specific details, that he would be arrested by the Jews and turned over to the Romans in Jerusalem. The trouble that awaited him was not new information for Paul, though the specific details were new, showing a prophetic personal word will merely be a confirmation of something the Lord has already shown a person.
 
Earlier, in the previous chapter, Acts 20:22:24 Paul said this:"..I am compelled to go to Jerusalem, not knowing what's going to happen to me there, though the Holy Spirit testifies in every city that arrest and troubles await me. But none of these things move me because I don't count my life dear to myself..."
 
Paul stated everywhere he went the Holy Spirit bore witness in others that if he went to the city arrest and trouble awaited him. But he said he didn't know the specifics. After he left them in Acts 20, chapter 21 opens with Paul sailing to the city of Tyre, and finding disciples verse 4 states:"Who kept telling him through the Spirit that he should not go up to Jerusalem." 
 
Up until this point wherever Paul went the disciples he met had a witness in their spirit, a 'bad feeling' about him going to the city - but as Paul himself admitted, 'I don't know the things that will happen to me there.' That means all those impressions, all those people, just had a vague witness in their spirit that trouble awaited him. It wasn't until Agabus the prophet provided precise information about those 'bad things' - the Jews would arrest him and turn him over to the Romans. 
 
The personal prophecy Paul received from Agabus was about his future, but it was just specific information about things Paul already knew. Personal prophecy will not be new information - it will be a confirmation of things the Lord has already revealed to you, and as a confirming word it will have more information. Even when Paul met Jesus on the road to Damascus in Acts 9:5 the Lord told him; "It is hard for you to kick against the ox-goads." An ox-goad was a pointy stick a person used from behind a 'cow' to poke them in the shoulder or read-end to keep them along the path. Jesus being the sharp two-edged sword, the Word of God, had evidently been poking Paul for some time about Him being the Messiah, and Paul was resisting. So even this meeting of Jesus was specific to the poking Paul had received from the Living Word, rather than completely new information. Jesus confirmed to him - how many of us were 'poked' by the Lord for some time before we finally gave in and believed? 
 
Next week, apostles....until then, blessings,
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 
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Seers, Prophets, personal prophecy, 2 of 3, Your spirit's gifts

4/11/2026

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Hi all,
 
Last week I shared how some people laid hands on me and prophesied and were spot on - but then they wanted to go further, and the 2nd time they merely perceived in their spirit what my gifts were - the put a 'thus saith the Lord' and a future tense to it, and called it God. 
 
Many manipulators not knowing the ways of the Father, think when they perceive the qualities in a person's spirit they are moving in prophecy, or worse, think themselves a prophet. But they have just become good at perceiving in their spirit the qualities of another person's spirit. This can be learned also among those who don't know the Lord, sometimes with demons - familiar spirits - telling the person things about another for the purpose of manipulation or even abuse. 
 
You've perceived the qualities of another's spirit
There are people you like and you don't know why, just as there are people you don't care for - not because they've done anything, you just don't 'click'. You perceive it isn't just personality, there is something deeper that your spirit doesn't like what's in them. Very often it is because your spirit recognizes something in their spirit (or soul) that conflicts with the Spirit of God, causing you to not like them.
 
You get some groceries at the store and you walk away wondering if the clerk is a Christian, or close to righteousness because there is something good or peaceful, like a recognition in your spirit your mind notices about them. In Mark 12:34 Jesus said to the scribe who answered rightly about scripture:"You aren't far from the kingdom of God." Jesus perceived the man's spiritual condition. It wasn't a prophetic word, it was an observation Jesus made about what He perceived of where that man was spiritually. We do that as well. 
 
Also, many men and women who have experienced some form of abuse when young can perceive in their spirit when a person they even casually meet is into lust or other things, for their spirit recognizes the kind of spirits that had abused them when they were younger. Our spirit can perceive on that human spirit to human spirit level if a person is pure or if something about them isn't right. The world calls it a 'gut feeling' or 'intuition', for even non-born again people are still spirit, soul and body. 
 
If a person suffered abuse as a child, or grew up in a home with addicts for example, now as an adult their spirit and soul can perceive that a stranger they see out in public is an addict because their spirit feels the spirits around that stranger - because that type of spirit was around their parents growing up. 
 
What was that? 
Simple prophecy is God given, Holy Spirit prompted. It isn't about figuring out the qualities of a person's personality or gifts - though that can be part of a prophecy. Prophecy is defined in I Corinthians 14:3:"One who prophesies speaks to people for their building up, encouragement, and comfort." It is the Father who is a Spirit, giving revelation to someone's spirit about His encouragement and comfort to that other person. There is nothing future in simple prophecy. Sometimes for encouragement the Lord will mention that person's gifts or talents He put in them, but that is done in the larger context of a message to them. This is because a prophecy is still about Jesus and His work and will. 
 
Many have prophesied while sitting at a table having tea or coffee with a friend, and you sense in your spirit that your friend is at the point of decision in something. You sense a peace about telling them thus and so, bringing them comfort - that was prophecy. If it came from your sympathy just as a friend, no, that was just a friend comforting their friend. But there are those times we move from a sense in our spirit, a sense of peace or inspiration to tell our friend - and that is prophecy. The gifts of the Spirit don't come with labels nor flashing announcement:"Incoming, what I'm giving you is a prophecy, put a 'thus saith the Lord' at the end." NO. Paul calls the gifts in I Corinthians 12:4-7 a "manifestation of the Spirit given for the benefit of all." It's normal, just part of being a Christian, that Christ in you would move through you for another person's betterment.  
 
The context of the New Testament was the home, in relationships, and in home meetings, so that is where all the gifts of the Spirit have their first use. A parent comforting their child after a rough day at work may be just a parent doing what parent's do. But perhaps as they listen to their child that parent is asking the Father for wisdom and just the right things to say to comfort the child - and out of their spirit comes comfort, encouragement, wisdom beyond what they had originally. They just prophesied, and perhaps gave a word of wisdom to their child. They flowed from their spirit, out their soul, speaking with their body - you can sense that flow, perceive it, there is nothing more fulfilling than living from the spirit-man outward. 
 
A word of wisdom is a divine instruction on something future - like the Lord giving a person wisdom on how to handle a difficult situation at work, or what to share of their experience in the job interview in the morning. A word of knowledge is divine knowledge about something past or present, and all these manifestations of the Spirit of God are just that - manifestations of the Spirit. 
 
Prophecy will not appeal to our ego:"The testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy." Revelation 19:10
The context was the apostle John was in heaven and started to bow at the feet of the man showing him around. The man was greatly distressed and insistent John not do that for he said he was a fellow believer as well. He said prophecy wasn't about him (the man showing John these things in heaven), but the testimony of Jesus is what prophecy is all about. 
 
This means a personal prophecy will not build you up, tell you what a great and powerful ministry you are called to (though He may tell you the scope of your ministry and the troubles you will have if you accept His invitation, as per Paul's interaction with Jesus on the road to Damascus.) If you are being used to give a prophecy to someone and was truly of the Spirit, you will feel no sense of ego, no sense of 'wow I'm good at this' - nothing about you at all. It's all about Jesus whether you are giving or receiving a word of prophecy.
 
IF you receive some 'prophet' giving you a long and flowery prophecy that goes on for pages and pages when you write it down, it wasn't from God. MAYBE the first paragraph was by the Spirit, but the rest would be the 'prophet' being in the flesh, just like what happened to me at that conference.
 
When the Spirit of God speaks, every example of Him speaking to someone in Acts, is short, to the point, direct, without any embellishments. Prophecy is about Jesus, not you or I. IF it appeals to ego, builds you up about your call and purpose, makes you think you are God's gift to mankind - that's not God. Jesus is meek, lowly of heart, approachable, and humble. Any personal prophecy will have that spirit of Jesus. No ego involved. 
 
Next week, what makes a seer/prophet a seer/prophet. Until then, blessings,
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 
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Seers, Prophets, personal prophecy: 'What is prophecy?'. 1 of 3

4/4/2026

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Hi all,
 
There is great confusion about Seers, prophets, prophecy, personal prophecy. In this part 1 I'll share how we can know people by their spirit - and the troubles it can cause.
 
Attraction to one's spirit
"From this point on I will not know a person by man's standards, (but by the spirit), though we knew Christ once in the flesh, but no more, we know Him by the Spirit. For if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation. Old things are gone, behold, all things are new and all things are of God." II Corinthians 5: 16-17.
 
In the world we recognize or give honor or know a person according to the standards of the world: Education, economics, job held, wealth and so on. In Christ there is but one standard: Being born again. Earthly measurements of knowing someone are secondary, which is why Paul said from this point on he won't know a person according to worldly standards, but by the Spirit. 
 
Much damage has been done by people confused about this New Testament reality of knowing people by their spirit. Many a woman has thrown herself at a minister because her spirit identifies with some of the gifts in his spirit, and she takes that as God telling her that he is her future husband. It doesn't have to be a minister - it happens from schools to churches, from businesses to chance meetings in public. Attraction to one's spirit is often mistaken as God's direction for a relationship. Mistaken - meaning it isn't God, it's just their spirit attracted to another's spirit.
 
When I was the director of a Bible school I got to know the great and widely respected evangelist, T.L. Osborn. Our school was in his ministry headquarters building, and I count that as a special time. He would speak at our chapel services, and I was even privileged to meet with him in his home. One day after he spoke at the chapel a student came to me crying, and she didn't know why. I asked her what she felt called to, and she said 'Missions.' I explained that the gifts in her spirit bore witness to the gifts in his spirit, missions, and her spirit was stirred upon hearing of all his adventures and the people he had won to the Lord. She knew T.L. according to Christ in each of them. 
 
Another example: 
When I was 16 I got to know a girl during 10th grade German class. The teacher often had students make teams of 2, and I was teamed with her. In between doing our lessons we got to know each other. She was Roman Catholic, I was Episcopalian (Anglican), which shares a common Sunday morning liturgy. She told me one day: "I know the God behind the liturgy." She led me to the Lord.
 
We were in 10th grade at the time, age 16. Her boyfriend and future husband led her to the Lord, she led me to the Lord, then I led my girlfriend and future wife, Barb, to the Lord. We each took a 2nd year of German in our junior year, so our friendship in the Lord continued to build. Our senior year of high school I was voted prom king, she was voted prom queen. I've always loved her spirit. I will always be thankful to her for sharing Jesus with me, and we are all still in regular touch to this day. I have loved her spirit since the start. I admire her soul and we have had that brother-sister relationship since. I would never, nor would she ever think of going beyond loving and appreciating our spirits. 
 
But some people develop a friendship with someone at work, or a pastor with a worship leader, or 2 neighbors, and mistake attraction to one's spirit (or soul) as love, as God, as God's will, as God told me they are my mate....and it isn't that at all. It's just perceiving who they are in their spirit. A person will often become emotionally involved, say 'God told me' they are my husband/wife', and wonder why God didn't tell that other person. We are spirit, soul, and body. Don't cross the line. Perceive if you are attracted to that person's spirit, maybe spirit and soul...but if there are other boundaries already in place, don't cross them. 
 
The idea our spirits can perceive what is in another's spirit isn't taught very much, and what is out there is pretty spooky and weird at times. 
 
People perceive and are attracted to the qualities of another person's spirit, and mistake that attraction for love. 
 
What if a pastor has a single woman in his congregation that comes to him, or him for advice. What if that pastor perceives in his spirit the qualities in the spirit of that woman - how God had made her, gifted her - and he feels an attraction to her because of that. Maybe she is also pretty to look at. He might manipulate her and control her, getting her to meet him at night alone at his office, or even bring s*x into the relationship under the guise that she needs that to be made whole from past relationships...and many other evil things like that happen in the body of Christ. Jesus defined adultery in Matthew 5: 28 as the imagination of lust towards another. Over the years I've seen many pastors in multiple adulteries - imaginations in their minds about women in their congregation or worship teams - and have pulled a few back from the brink.
 
This can happen in any business, industry, or friendships as well as church. Our world is so corrupt some suggest Mary Magdalene and Jesus were a couple - even early Christian heretical writings suggest that. People's minds are so corrupt they can't imagine a woman who had 7 demons cast out of her loving Jesus strictly on a spiritual level, they think it had to have gotten physical, but it didn't. Don't we love Jesus' from our spirit? That is purity. Our spirit bears witness with the Holy Spirit that we are the Father's children and that Christ is in us. This is why Paul writes in in I Timothy 5:2 to treat older women as mothers and younger ones as sisters - Paul is saying love their spirits, give them the respect and honor due, and don't cross boundaries. 
 
Years ago I was a speaker at an 'apostolic' conference, and while waiting for my turn to speak in a side room, some of those helping serve water and snacks wanted to lay hands on me and prophesy over me. I let them, and what they initially said was spot on - that I would soon be launched into another type of ministry and such. But when I thanked them and started to get up from the 'hot seat', they urged me to sit back down 'and see what else the Lord might say.' 
 
I did that, allowing them to continue. What they said next were things not of the Lord, but things their spirit perceived of the gifts in my spirit. Everything they said God would in the future bring me to, I was already doing. They didn't know at the time I was the Director of a large Bible school and taught classes nearly daily, oversaw a large staff in a mega-church, and filled in for the pastor on Sundays and Wednesday when he was traveling in ministry. Their 'prophetic words' which they all put in future tense, said I would soon be led to a position where I'd be teaching, soon be an administrator, soon oversee a large staff and budget....it was all the things I was currently doing. How did they miss it?
 
The first time they prayed was the Lord. The second was them perceiving in their spirit the things in my spirit - they were getting to know me as Paul stated above, by the spirit for the spirit is a new creation in Christ. Many so-called prophets build their ministry not on the prophetic, but on perceiving a person's spirit and turning it into a 'thus saith the Lord'. And we will start there next week. Until then, blessings,
 
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 

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Why the Wilderness? The place of silence. 3 of 3

3/28/2026

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Hi all,
 
Have you ever been to a desert? There isn't a lot there but rocks, sand, and a few plants. It is tan in color and seems to go on forever. It is bland. It is like a bowl of porridge. There is nothing visually to distract you, and there is no noise other than the occasional bird. Its beauty lies in its starkness. The dry desert wilderness experience is a place of silence, of being alone to look around, contemplate, and be alone with our thoughts. 
 
Silence has long been a cornerstone of Judaism. The priests performed their duties in the temple in silence. When they sacrificed an animal or grain, it was in silence. By contrast, other religions focus on chants, gongs, songs, prayers and such as their priests perform their duties. Rabbi Abahu said when God gave the Commandments to Moses all the people were silent, and even the world fell silent. Fasting words has long been part of Judaism and Christianity - Monks in particular are known to practice vows of silence. 
 
When the prophet Elijah was in the cave after his confrontation with the prophets of Baal, he encountered God not in the whirlwind, fire, or the earthquake, but in the 'still small voice'. In Hebrew; kol demamah dakah, literally “the sound of a slender silence.” You can only hear Him when you aren't talking. When you aren't praising. When you aren't praying. 
 
Many have discovered they have been created to hear His voice in a particular place and setting of the mind. Perhaps it is while working in the garden, perhaps out in nature, perhaps in a hot shower or bath. It seems the Lord meets us there and in our ignorance we may think He likes a particular location. But the truth is that is the place we shift to neutral, when all other distractions have been shut out. First we become aware of His presence, then His Words. 
 
Two parts to hearing
When I'm in my office at home there are many times I can hear Barb elsewhere in the house calling out to me. But I can't understand what she is saying - I hear her voice, I know she is saying something, but I can't make out the words. I have to get closer to her to understand. In Hebrew the speaker is 'Medaber', and that which is spoken is the 'medubar'. 
 
How many times do we perceive in our spirit a leading, then our mind argues against it and we do our own thing, only to later realize that was the Lord? We heard the voice and maybe understood the basics of the instruction, but decided to do it the way our minds told us. Both parts are required - first hear that He is speaking, then perceiving what He is communicating. With the Lord, He can download a whole chapter that we find difficult to put into words because the revelation is so vast and connects so many 'dots' in our life. 
 
But it all started with silence. It is in that silence we know we are loved, embraced, and heard. We aren't alone. But that awareness is subtle, in our spirit, that still, small voice that is sometimes nothing more than a deep peace inside. But it is enough, if we let it be enough. There is such richness, such depth in just sensing His presence, that once noticed, it is like stepping through the gates of a great estate. There is too much to explore all at once, and we want to sit and soak and take it all in - such is His presence in our spirit we perceive in the midst of silence. 
 
Consider....
God spoke the universe into existence. Therefore prayers are important. But in between His words and ours, are moments of silence. We put a period at the end of a sentence to mark silence, the end of speaking. We put an exclamation mark at the end of a sentence to emphasize a point or emotion. But at the end of that period or exclamation mark is a space of silence. Words are important to prayer, but silence is equally important. Without silence between words we would not know the meaning of the words. 
 
The darkness between the stars in the night sky gives them definition and dimension. The time-out in a sporting event is the silence between the action, which provides for thought, planning, and defines what next happens in the game. We slow down our speech in solemn moments like weddings and funerals, to allow periods of silence for contemplation. We cannot have words unless we also have silence in between them. It is by the absence of words that we know silence. "Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10.
 
The word 'selah' is used 71 times in 39 Psalms, and has been the source of great debate as to its meaning. It was used to indicate a pause much the way a fermata is used when writing sheet music today. A fermata is called a birds eye or cyclops eye because it is a dot with a brow over it. It means to pause after the note is held at the discretion of the performer or musician. 
 
The root of 'selah' similarly means 'to pause' or 'to suspend' or 'to hang'. Without a selah at the end of a verse a person would just go blindly on to the next verse without stopping in silence to contemplate the point just made. How often do we feel led or have a sense of the Lord's direction and we just go on about our business without taking the time to selah, to pause, to hang on that last word, that last revelation we had? Receive that rhema, then go back and chew on it a bit more, getting every bit of spiritual nourishment. 
 
Prayer is the vehicle by which our requests are carried, silence transports us into His presence.
Culture teaches us silence is a void to be filled. In media 'dead air' is a no-no. They must fill the silence with words and/or pictures. Silence is a void. Silence is equated with loneliness. Therefore our prayers tend to blend in with all the other sounds out there, and it becomes difficult to perceive the Shepherd's voice among the many. We must stop listening to those other voices until we get to the point His voice stands alone in the silence. 
 
But in Christ, silence has substance. Silence requires two parts:Silencing the tongue, and silencing the soul. Silence of the tongue opens the door to silence of the soul. It also opens the door to love, empathy, reflection and personal course adjustments. They go together as above, you cannot define words but by the silence in between, so too you cannot truly define your walk with God without periods of silence. But silence is all too often forgotten. We tell God what we want, we declare, we war, we proclaim, we, we, we. How in the world can we ever expect to hear from our Father and Lord if we do all the talking? Learn silence.
 
One rabbi has said:"The cry one holds back is the most powerful of all." Another observed:"A fast from words has greater transformational power than a fast from food." In the wilderness, consider times of silence. In your prayer life, make sure to give equal time to silence. It is how I have lived for decades now, and I'm convinced one reason the revelations keep flowing. In times when I've felt the need for more revelation, I ask the Father what Paul asked of Him for the Ephesians in 1:17-19:"Father, please give me the Spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of you, that the eyes of my understanding would be enlightened to know the depth of the invitation you extend to me."
 
In the wilderness the cloud is right there. His miracles are right there. See them. Think about them. Perhaps like the priests, have a time you perform your duties in silence, to contemplate your heart, for the wilderness is not there to test you for evil, but to prove what He knows is inside of you, so you can know it too. THEN in strength you will come out of the wilderness stronger than before. Wilderness is just a moment in your eternal life, don't make it a lifetime.
 
New subject next week, until then, blessings, 
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 
 

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Why the Wilderness? Tenderness in the wilderness. 2 of 3

3/21/2026

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Hi all,
 
Looking for tenderness in the wilderness
Many times a person feels like they are in a wilderness because of an unanswered promise. They have put their expectations on how they think that promise will be met, and when it doesn't happen in the time or way they thought it was coming, it shakes their faith. Often it is because we form a structure through which and by which we believe God functions. When the Father lets us down by not doing what fits our structure of what we think are His ways and His Word, it can throw us into a wilderness of mistrust. 
 
Those times of disappointment and God doing things or not doing things according to what we thought, cause us to examine what we believe and why. After the disappointment, after the anger, comes introspection, a process that can take years. But the Father is the Master at using things that cause us to question Him to turn us around and teach us, proving what is truly in our heart. The wilderness brings the deepest parts of our heart to the surface so we can either affirm what we believe, or repent and change. 
 
How God used Israel's wilderness:Deuteronomy 8:1-7
Deuteronomy is Moses' last words, speaking to the children of those who had come out of Egypt, but died in the wilderness. That was the generation that would enter the Promised Land. In Deuteronomy 8:1 the Lord tells the children that His intent is to prepare them to enter the Promised Land of blessing He had promised the forefathers and parents.
 
Towards that end, He continues with this in v2:"Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands." 
 
The word translated 'test' or 'prove' is the Hebrew word 'nasah' and was also used in Genesis 22:1 where we are told 'God did test Abraham' to offer Isaac. Jewish and Christian scholars point out the word 'prove' does not mean a temptation for evil, nor a test so God could know what was in Abraham's and Israel's heart. No, it means "that the knowledge (of what is in their heart) may arise in them." The Father knows all, so a time of wilderness which is a time of testing, isn't for His sake so He can know what is in our heart; it is for our sake, that we may know what is in our heart. 
 
There are several other passages in the Old Testament that reveal this Father uses the same methods again and again:"God left him (Hezekiah) to prove him to know what was in his heart." II Chronicles 32:31, Judges 2:22, II Chronicles 9:1 - 36 uses of this same word for the same purpose. God isn't doing it to you, but He is using your wilderness so that you may know what is in your heart. Yes, it's a test. Yes, it is to prove what is in your heart, not to put a stumbling block before you. James 1:13 says God does not test man with evil for He is not tested/tempted by evil, so God isn't allowing a wilderness to make life difficult. Rather so you can know your own heart and the depth of your commitment to Christ.
 
Tenderness in the wilderness 
Wilderness is not something we want to go through again, yet it has miracles known only to us. Concerning Israel, Lord looked upon that time in the wilderness as something intimate just between Him and them. Moses was told to tell Pharaoh in Exodus 4:22:"Israel is my son, even my firstborn." Later, in Hosea and looking back, the Lord said:"When Israel was a child I loved him, and called my son out of Egypt." Hosea 11:1. That's not the voice of a hard taskmaster, but one of a loving Father helping His child grow up. 
 
Some of us remember our own fathers, or perhaps a first job, and being required to continue working when you were tired, hungry, thirsty, blistered and dirty - but your father, or your boss, made you push yourself, and you found out you were stronger than you had known before that day started. Many go through extreme challenges in life like divorce, death of loved ones, bankruptcies, lay-offs and firings, unexpected moves and more, to discover they were stronger than they realized before those experiences. But those times are not without compassion, instruction and tenderness from the Lord. He was there all along, we often discover in hindsight. 
 
Even when Israel later fell away from the Lord in a different spiritual wilderness, in Hosea 2:14, 19-20 the Lord shifts His tenderness from that of Father to son, to that of a forgiving husband to an unfaithful wife:"Behold! I will allure (woo) her, and bring her into the wilderness and speak tender words to her" And; "I will betroth her to me forever, yes, betrothed in righteousness, in justice, in loving-kindness and mercies. I will even betroth her to me in faithfulness, and she will know the Lord." Tender words are received in the wilderness. Look for His tenderness.
 
"Man does not live by bread alone, but by every Word that proceeds from the mouth of God"
Above I mentioned part of Deuteronomy 8:2 about how the Lord used the wilderness to let them prove what was in their heart. In the very next verse, 3, He says He wanted them to learn in the wilderness:"Man does not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God." 
 
That is a statement of tenderness; a confirming the above in Hosea, that the Lord will talk to us in the midst of our wilderness. It is also quoted by Jesus when He was in the wilderness tempted by Satan. In Matthew 4:4 He used it when He refused to turn stones to bread. The word Jesus used for 'word of God' is 'rhema', not 'logos'. The logos is the whole of God's Word, the entirety of God's counsel, and is used of Jesus being the Word of God made flesh. It is the Genesis through The Revelation, the whole of God's counsel. AND, the whole of God's counsel embodied in the person of Jesus Christ, the Father's Word. Logos. 
 
Out of the logos, out of the whole of God's counsel comes a specific word to us individually. That is 'rhema'. It is used to indicate a personal word, a personal revelation from God to us. You received a rhema about Jesus and responded by believing in Him. If you understand the difference between logos and rhema it can change your understanding of much in the New Testament, and certainly your wilderness experience. Rhema can be a revelation, a leading, a witness, something discerned, perceived in your spirit, or a direct word. 
 
Jesus when tempted equated the hunger for a rhema as being equal to hunger for food. Not hunger for the logos, the general counsel of God, but we should hunger for a word from the Lord, a revelation, a personal teaching or spiritual insight that is of priority equal to our meals. Let that sink in:We do not live by bread alone, but by every personal word to us that proceeds from the mouth of God. 
 
You were saved by receiving a rhema
For instance Romans 10:17:Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. That word for 'Word' is rhema, not logos. Faith doesn't come by reading 2 chapters of the Bible a day. Faith doesn't come by memorizing a verse a day. Faith doesn't come by listening to a sermon or Bible teacher. All those are logos - the general counsel of God that is for everyone. That's all great, but faith doesn't come by those. Faith comes by receiving a rhema. Faith comes by a personal word from God to you, for your situation. It is when you listen to a teacher and suddenly it resonates with you, or a joy leaps in your spirit, or suddenly that one line makes so many things you've believed and experienced make sense and fall into place. THAT is a rhema. And the original context was equating hearing from Him with food while we are in a wilderness. 
 
Sometimes a person has to be really, really deep in their wilderness before they become that desperate. It is far easier to email someone or go to a meeting hoping God will use someone to have a word for us, than it is to pay the price to get before Him, to worship, to listen for ourselves...He is there in tenderness, and to use that time to prove what is in your heart. That often requires silence, and I'll share about that and how to do that next week. Until then, blessings,
 
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 
 

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Why the wilderness? 1of 3

3/14/2026

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Hi all,
 
A common expression is 'I'm going through a wilderness'. Sometimes people say; 'God isn't talking to me' or 'I feel like the Lord has left me.' Sometimes a person feels like they are in a wilderness if they haven't moved in the gifts of the Spirit or had a spiritual dream for a time. All these and more can go with the feeling of being in a dry spiritual wilderness. 
 
We compare our wilderness to Israel in the desert
We feel like we are in a dry place trying to get to a spiritual Promised Land of fulfillment, purpose, and direction, which will give us peace and a closeness to God. In I Corinthians 10:1-13 Paul makes the point concerning Israel, that they were all under the same cloud of God, all went through the same Sea together, all ate the same manna, all 'drank from the same Rock and that Rock was Christ'. Yet with some of them God was not pleased because they fell into sexual sin, idolatry, and lust for the relative abundance they had back in Egypt. So the question is:Why the wilderness and what should we expect from it? Perhaps also:What should our attitude be when we are in a spiritual wilderness?
 
After mentioning Israel in the wilderness, Paul said in v6 and again in v11:"...these things happened to them as examples to admonish us..." The Greek word 'admonish' means to 'draw attention to, a mild rebuke, a warning (to take notice).' In other words - notice, study, learn and don't make their mistakes when you are in your own wilderness. 
 
Consider Israel's wilderness experience...
The Lord gave Israel the 10 Commandments and the rest of the Mosaic law while Israel was in the desert. At that time, roughly 1400 BC, no nation owned that desert. This tells us the Word of God belonged to no single nation. It was for everyone, for any who would have Him. We might also say Jesus (the Word of God in the flesh) hung on the cross between earth and heaven, and in that in-between place owned by no one, He paid the price for all. 
 
Otherwise, if God had given the Word to Israel after they'd settled in the land of Israel, they could have said no other nation may have the Word of God. If the Jews alone had crucified Jesus they might be able to claim Him exclusively as their own. But it was Jews and Gentiles (Romans) involved in the crucifixion of Jesus. Therefore the person who is the Living Word in the midst of His own wilderness, is for all who will receive Him. 
 
Consider too...
If God's Word had been given to Israel within the land of Israel, all other nations would have an excuse not to receive the Lord. They could say with justification He is only Israel's 'god'. But He didn't, so no one has an excuse. The wilderness is no excuse to lose faith in God, for the greatest miracles in Israel's existence happened while they were wandering in the wilderness. He parted the Sea, turned poison water to fresh, made water pour out of a rock, supplied a cloud by day and fire by night, provided manna, quails, their clothes and shoes didn't wear out, and so much more - all while Israel was in the wilderness. 
 
We too must look for His miracles while in our wilderness. Some of them complained of the way the Lord provided for them (manna) - let us not be like that!
 
This pattern of the Lord giving His Word in the wilderness is why so very often, a person draws near to God and feels spiritually strong in those times. Though in a wilderness, inside they are strong. They notice the 'little' miracles of provision (sometimes barely there), but also timing, grace, and many other signs that He is with them, and they are comforted. 
 
Years ago I led a Bible study in a medium security penitentiary. The men in the Bible study had done very serious crimes and were in for life. They were in a wilderness they had made, and would remain until they died. But those men were more free than many people walking through normal life outside the prison walls. They were free in their spirit, in their soul, the Lord being so real, so gracious to them, and they truly exhibited the joy and peace of the Lord in the midst of the prison and its difficult prison culture. 
 
Paul valued his wilderness experiences:"He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is perfected (matured, completed, made whole) in the midst of your weakness.' Therefore I will glory in my weakness that the power of Christ will reside in me." II Corinthians 12:9 
 
Each person's wilderness experience is unique to them, and deeply personal
It can be claimed by no one else, and it proves we are just passing through, which is important to remember. Walking through a wilderness is temporary, just a season in life. When our oldest son Chris had a stroke at age 17, causing him to lose the use of his left arm and much of his left leg, the Lord told Barb:"Make this a moment, not a lifetime." The meaning being from heaven's perspective it is just a fleeting moment, and He wanted her to see that larger perspective in the midst of the crisis. 
 
We aren't to stay in a place where we could say we were victims of circumstance - or that our wilderness came because of the sins of others - no, we shouldn't say that. "If only the Egyptians had just let us go voluntarily", isn't valid. "If only the pastor didn't have the affair with the worship leader I wouldn't feel so angry at them and God." "If pastor hadn't sinned I wouldn't feel like my whole spiritual world has crumbled." No. 
 
No matter who did what and when, remember the saying; "If you don't feel as close to God as you used to, guess who moved?" Israel had to go through a wilderness to get to the Promised Land. Jesus' crucifixion caused the disciples to flee in shock and confusion. But resurrection day came. Wilderness is part of life on earth, but wildernesses are seasonal.
 
Peter wrote this in II Peter 1:4:"...through which are given to us exceeding great and precious promises, that by these we might come into fellowship* with the divine nature..." We look at the promises of God as answered prayer, so we do all to stand 'in faith'. We cast out demons, ask the Father for angels, maybe fast and pray as we await the promise fulfilled. *Greek:koinos, fellowship, having in common
 
But said He gives them first and foremost that we might fellowship in His divine nature. In my experience, in most cases, the quicker I focus on being more Christ-like and growing while I eagerly await the fulfilling of His promise, the faster that promise is answered. Rather than adopting the error that it is all on me to fight and stand and rebuke and fast and pray to see the answer, I stop and draw near to Him. I do all I can in that time to develop the character of Christ and fruit of the spirit while awaiting the promise to be fulfilled. Align your heart with His higher purpose of giving you the promise so you may fellowship with the divine nature, and the wilderness time gets shortened very quickly.
 
Next week; Tenderness in the wilderness. Until then, blessings!
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected] 
 
 
 

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Where is the fear of God? 1 of 1

3/7/2026

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Hi all,
 
When I was a child we lived in the country with a horse farm bordering the back of our property. We had about 2.5 acres (1 hectare) with a creek and a few fruit trees on the hill on the other side of the creek. We had a swing set and sand box outside the back door dad had built for we 4 kids. The neighboring horse farm had a cat that regularly wandered onto our property, and used the sand box as a giant litter box. My dad hated that cat because we were always having to clean out the sand box before we could play in it. 
 
One evening I was playing in the sand box when dad burst through the back door with a rifle in hand. I didn't even know there was a gun in the house. Without hesitation he cursed the cat once again, took aim as it walked along our back fence about 110 yards away (100m), and with 1 shot killed it. At that moment I was afraid of my dad. I was probably 6 or 7 years old at the time, and being afraid of my dad was a new emotion for me. I knew him as the one the dog and I wrestled with, the one who cut my hair in the basement, the one who taught me how to shake hands and shine my shoes - I didn't know him as a man with a gun who would kill a cat! That was a revelation. 
 
When we had horses
I told my sons not to think of their horses as giant pets. I told them they may love their horse and think their horse loves them, but never forget they are a 1,000 pound animal (453k). Love them, but never forget their power. 
 
In Numbers 16:9 when Korah and friends, who were Levitical priests, rebelled against the leadership of Moses and Aaron, Moses asked him:"Do you think it is a small thing that the Lord chose you from the congregation to minister in the tabernacle and minister to the congregation?" In Jeremiah 23:32 the Lord says of false prophets; "They cause my people to err because of their lies and their 'lightness'." The word 'lightness' is 'pachazuth', meaning frivolous, extravagance, lightness, casualness. 
 
The common thread among these examples is a lack of a revelation:Me that my dad could kill. My sons that their horses were powerful. Korah that they were responsible to God. The Lord had revealed Himself to Israel by the plagues of Egypt, the miracles in the wilderness - because a revelation of His power should put the fear of God in a person. Today, the revelation of His power, His highest and best exertion of His power, was when He raised Jesus from the dead. With that, we are to see, know, understand and let it sink into our being, His power revealed when He saved us. Saved us from h*ll, prison, sin - whatever it was - He saved us through the exertion of His mighty power when He raised Jesus from the dead which eventually caused us to be born again in our spirit. When we think of that power in our lives, which has changed us so dramatically, the fear of God is the natural response. Stir that up once in a while! Live in it! Live in the awe of what He has done in us, for us, with us! When we know that, then we start the path of learning. 
 
The casual approach to the things of God in many churches and Internet today is reflected in the frequency of 'words' prophets or other ministers say are from God. It is reflected in the corruption and immorality so frequently revealed in pastors and ministers. It is reflected in the casual familiarity of those who call Almighty God the Father, 'daddy', in a misunderstanding of the use of the word 'abba' in the first century. This lack of the fear of God shuts off revelation for teaching, revelation in worship, revelation for holy living. 
 
I'm not talking about being afraid of the Father or Lord just because we sin here and there, or even if a person battles something habitual. No, I'm talking about a casual approach to the things of God within Christian culture. Many auditorium churches have exchanged the flow for the show, the manifest presence (anointing) of God for emotion, and going deep in the Spirit in worship for smoke and lasers. 
 
Sometime a few decades ago the idea took over that churches should not challenge people in a service and have the highest and best of everything in order to attract people to Christ. A church would raise millions for real Italian marble in the foyer or a million or more for the best sound system while many in their congregation couldn't pay their rent. Priorities were switched from caring for the true church to caring for the building called church. Appearance became what mattered. In the name of being relevant, the altar calls, fear of God, and preaching of absolutes ended. The things of God became a system, a formula, a scheduled professional presentation. 
 
"Be still and know that I am God"
That is from Psalm 46:10 and answers the question:"How can I get a (revelation) of the fear of God?"
 
Be still and know that I am God. Be still and think what He saved you from. Be still and mediate on where you'd be without Him. Awe, fear, worship is the natural response to that level of personal revelation. It is in that stillness we contemplate, we search, we shift attention down to our spirit where He reveals Himself. A rabbi said:Silence is the most powerful prayer. Rabbi Shimon son of Gamliel said:"All my days I have grown up around the wise, and I have found nothing better than silence." Many rabbi's write of silence being the main way to connect with God. 
 
Silence is not just the absence of sound, it is a state of being, 
A state of quietness of whole-self, of coming to the end of yourself to sit, stand, work, in His presence. When a person is silent in their being, they can work, they can sit - it is a state of being, not the lack of sound.
 
The ancient priests did not talk at all when performing sacrifices in the temple - the choir did - the people did - but the priests when making sacrifices to God did not talk at all. They were to be in a state of communion with the Lord through silence - observant, reflective - but actively doing their job. It is a condition of humbling oneself before God, silence in His presence in both the awe and fearful respect of the Almighty. 
 
Some might call it meditation, or shifting the mind to neutral, which allows for reflection, inner thoughts, thoughts turned to the spirit of man. In I Samuel 1:10-13 Hannah prayed silently for a son, whom she promised to dedicate to the Lord. Eli the priest saw her lips move slightly, but heard no sound. God heard her prayer. In Genesis 21:15-17 Hagar and teenager Ishmael are sent out into the wilderness. There, with water gone, she lays him under a shrub then walks away, saying to herself she can't stand to see her son die. But in v17 the Lord tells her twice 'I have heard the voice of the boy'. 
 
It was in that silence of near death for young Ishmael that the Lord heard him. It was in Hannah's silent prayer, that the Lord heard her. It is written in the Torah that when Sarah laughed in the Lord's presence when He told her she would have a son, in Genesis 18:12-13, that she laughed in silence to herself - but the Lord heard her. 
 
I have found most of the time, when I am in the Spirit and the Lord comes to visit me, it is when I am silent that He comes. I see Him in our conferences quite often while we are in worship. I have seen Him in house church meetings, often in worship. But most often, my most private times with Him that I never share with anyone, happen when I am silent. 
 
Paul wrote in I Corinthians 14:10 that there are many voices in this world, and none without significance. Consider turning off those voices, including your own. Yes, stop talking. In ancient times in the Breslov branch of Hasidic Judaism they practiced silence while walking out in fields. There is also a 'taanit dibbur' meaning 'a fast of words.' We fast food, we fast TV, we fast sweets. Consider fasting words for a time. In Judaism the most profound, private prayer is called 'tefillah be-lachash' or 'the silent prayer', based on Hannah's silent prayer of the heart in I Samuel 1. 
 
Consider silence to gain or regain the fear of the Lord. You won't find it in church. And...when the mind wanders, reign it back in to focus on the Lord. I have found the Lord to be a perfect gentleman in that He won't talk as long as I am talking. I employ this when I lay hands on someone for prayer. I tell them to be quiet - no praying, no praying in tongues - silence, for as long as they are talking He will not. I won't start praying for them until they are silent. Then He can flow into them and in them. 
 
And I'm ending this 1 page 'Thoughts' about the fear of God, to pick up next time with a related topic:Why the wilderness? Until then, blessings,
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 

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Insights and understanding, 4 of 4

2/28/2026

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Hi all,
 
The word 'tzitzit' (tsit-zit) means 'fringes', which was commanded by God to be on the clothing of ancient Israelis as a reminder of the Word of God in Numbers 15:37-41:
 
"Speak to the Israelites and say to them to make tzitzit (tassels) on the corners of their garments throughout their generations, with a blue cord on each tzitzit. You will have these tassels to look at to remind you of the Word of God, to do all His commands, that you may obey them and not follow your own hearts and eyes to fulfill your lusts. Then you will remember to obey all my commands and that you are consecrated to your God." 
 
The strings (tassels) must be tied directly to the clothing which means no clip-on tassels are permitted. There are 4, one on each corner, with each made of 4 threads (one of them blue) looped over to make 8 total. Then 5 knots are made in the 8 tassels near the top, making the tassel (tzitzit) into one cord. Because the Hebrew alphabet has a number associated with each letter, the name 'tzitzit' in Hebrew is also the number 600. By including the 5 knots in the 8 tassels for a total of 13, they add up to 613 - the number of laws in the Law of Moses, reminding the wearer of the commands of the Lord. 
 
Why a blue thread?
In ancient Israel every Israelite's clothing had a tzitzit at each corner of their clothes. Over time clothing styles changed, and now they have prayer shawls with tzitzit, usually of wide blue and white stripes. In ancient times God commanded a blue thread be included among the white threads. The blue dye was made from the chilazon snail, a type of Murex, that lives in the Mediterranean. Blue is the color of heaven and God; reminding each Israelite they were God's nobility, called as a nation to be a kingdom of priests (Exodus 19:6).
 
What David did
The whole of I Samuel 24 is about David cutting off the hem of Saul's robe while Saul was relieving himself in the cave where David was hiding. Verse 5 tells us David's conscience 'struck him', which is a good translation of the Hebrew 'nakah'. It means to 'strike, beat, give a wound, or punish'. David felt very convicted he had cut the hem of Saul's garment. In ancient times and in some funerals today, a person's tzitzit was cut off at their funeral, showing they are no longer bound to the Laws of Moses. Some customs bury the person with their prayer shawl, but with one of the tzitzit damaged or removed to show the same. 
 
David's conscience bothered him because he had performed the funeral ceremony of cutting off a tzitzit from Saul, telling him that he is a dead man, released from having to obey God's Word - a direct reference to I Samuel 15 when Saul deliberately disobeyed the Lord - talk about putting salt in the wound David! David's repentance was so powerful Saul himself repented for trying to kill David, and went home. 
 
What the woman of Mark 5 did
In Matthew 9:20, Mark 5:24-34 and Luke 8:43-44 we see a woman with a severe and chronic (12 years) hemorrhaging condition. "When she had heard of Jesus she touched his clothes, for she said within herself; If I just touch the hem of His clothes I will be whole.'" He told her:"Your faith has made you whole." 
 
A few chapters later, in Matthew 14:35-36, we are told:"And when the people of the place recognized Jesus was there, they told everyone in the area. People brought their sick to Him and begged Him to at least let them touch the hem of His clothes, and all who touched it were healed."
 
We could speculate that because she is first mentioned in Matthew 9 of touching the hem (tzitzit) of His clothes and was healed, the crowds of Matthew 14 had heard how she was healed, and emulated her, full of faith because of her faith and actions. We don't know, but we do know the tzitzit stands for the Word of God, and there in the crowd before their very eyes was the Word of God in the flesh - the whole of the Word fulfilling the 613 commands perfectly, in the flesh - and just touching the Living Word through touching the tzitzit, healed many people. 
 
The Lord's Supper - part of a larger communal meal
In most churches today, the Lord's Supper is celebrated as a separate part of a service. In the first century the Lord's Supper was part of the meal. Matthew 26:26:"As they were eating Jesus took the bread and blessed it, and gave it to His disciples saying; Take, eat, this is my body...." Mark 14:22:"While they were eating Jesus took the bread..." 
 
In house church, food is integral, and in some cultures today resembles the way Jesus celebrated that first 'Lord's Supper'. In fact it was the celebration of these community meals that helped Christianity grow so quickly throughout the Roman Empire. This is because Roman, Greek, and Jewish culture all had these large family and friends meals as part of the basic social fabric of Mediterranean life in the first century. When Jews, Greeks, and Romans became Christians, they naturally incorporated Christ into the community meals they'd been doing all their lives.
 
In Judaism, Jews didn't eat with Gentiles, but they had their own community meal. Romans looked down on the Greeks, but each culture had their own community meals. A good example of them coming together is seen in Acts 18 with the founding of the church at Corinth. Paul led many Jews in the synagogue to Jesus, and as such needed to meet in someone else's house, which turned out to be a Roman name Justus. We are told "and many of the Corinthians (Greeks) also believed and were baptized." Later, in I Corinthians 11:17-34 some of those in this racially and socio-economically mixed body of believers, refused to eat with the rest. 
 
For Romans, the community meal, the meal was open to family, friends, and neighbors, but segregated by social and economic status. For Greeks, usually only elite people were invited, the poorer classes were shunned. For Jews, only Jews were invited. The meal was about remembering their history, bonding around the things of God, reinforcing their unique identity and strengthening social and family bonds. Now imagine these 3 cultures thrown together for a community meal. They were all new believers in Jesus, and each had their own expectations of what these meals should look like. Additionally, Corinth was a sea port and it was known that the city's white collar workers never mixed with dock workers, sailors, and shop owners. It is no wonder Paul's first letter to the Corinthians addressed at least 10 major issues! At least 3 of those involved separating into insulated little groups who didn't associate with the others, and strife!
 
Paul brought it all together for them in I Corinthians 11:17-34 by writing to them to focus on the real reason they had come together:To celebrate the life, sacrifice, and promises of Jesus Christ. Paul urged them in so many words to lay aside that which divides; their prejudices, their preconceived ideas of what the traditional communal meal should look like, and focus on Jesus. Paul repeats what he said he learned directly from the Lord:Take the bread which represents the body broken, and the wine which represents the blood shed, and partake together. 
 
Paul told those who chose to separate from the others; "Many are weak and sickly among you, and many have died early, because you have not properly discerned the Lord's body." In context, the discerning of the Lord's body isn't about healing, but about the body of Christ. That He died and rose for Jew, Greek and Roman, and if you dismiss race, socio-economic, and life history issues from those in the room, you can focus on what Jesus did for each one present. This provides for a true community meal. 
 
If you are in a house church, or maybe a Bible study or prayer group, consider this:Have a meal together and somewhere after everyone has eaten most of their meal but still talking and eating and sharing, step in to casually pass around bread and juice or wine. Get everyone's attention, and point out the rich conversations going on, how Jesus saved each person with no concern for who they were or where they came from, just that He loves each one - and then after a moment to consider and get one's heart right, eat the bread, drink the fruit of the vine....and then continue in the conversations, reflections, and appreciation for each one present. 
 
More insights and understandings next week to close the series. Until then, blessings,
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected] or [email protected]
 
 
 

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Insights and understanding, 3 of 4

2/21/2026

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Hi all,
 
During the time I was on staff as the Bible school Director of a large megachurch, about 1998 or 1999, a well known teacher was a guest speaker during a week-long conference. Because of my position Barb and I were seated on the front row a few seats from the Pastor. At one point the speaker asked the congregation to come forward and leave $100 cash or checks written to her on the platform as a point of faith. When I say 'asked' I am being polite. More like yelled at, urged, exhorted, preached at, all with a dose of condemnation for those who didn't comply. It was to get from God whatever the desire was:Healing, financial breakthrough, loved one to be saved, or something else. 
 
Barb and I were horrified at her manipulation, and were even more horrified when senior members of the church staff got up and did as she requested. To my great shame I too got up and left a check on the platform in what would prove to be the last 'fear of man' act of my life. I glared at the pastor as I walked back to my seat, wanting him to put a stop to the nonsense. But at the same time I felt pressured by him and my immediate boss (the Associate Pastor) to comply. 
 
Some time after that set of meetings I got the dreaded phone call from the pastor. When I saw the caller ID on my office phone I froze in fear, but just then the Lord spoke to me:"I'm the one who put you here and I'm the only one who can remove you." All fear of being fired left, peace came, and I answered the phone. (I wasn't fired)
 
The core teaching from; 'Give $100 to get your answered prayer', finds its roots in the earlier Word of Faith teaching of the 100 fold return. 
That phrase is from Mark 4:1-20, the Parable of the Sower (Planter). In v1-8 Jesus teaches the parable of the planter planting seed; Some fell by the path and birds came and ate the seed. Other seed fell on stony ground, but because it had no soil once sprouted it dried up and withered away. Some fell among thorns (weeds) and the weeds choked off the seed so it never grew to the point it produced. And in v8, some fell on good ground and produced some thirty, some sixty, and some one hundred fold. 
 
He went into detail privately with the disciples in v13-20, explaining the ground represents the human heart, and the various conditions the Word (Jesus is the Word) finds when it (He) is planted in hearts. The good soil produced He said now for the 2nd time in v20; "Some 30, some 60, some 100 fold". The rest of the chapter through v34 is related to this parable, including the instruction to be careful what we hear, and that how we value the things of God is how He will give to us. (v24)
 
Word of Faith (WOF) teachers took the '100 fold return' out of context, turning it into a teaching about giving - give to get - that if you give $10 God will give you back $100 or $1000. Clearly that is wrong. Here is what Jesus meant by the expression; "some 30, some 60, some 100 fold return." 
 
This was a common agricultural assessment of a crop. 
Farmers would talk of getting 30, 60, or 100 fold return on their crop in any given year. The '100 fold return' is not a mathematical statement, but rather one of completion, maturity, the best one could get out of the given situation. Consider that if a seed falls on stony ground and only sprouts, that is the best it could have done in that situation. If a seed falls among thorns and weeds and grows up but gets choked off, it is the best that seed could have done in that situation. 
 
The good heart is like good soil and produces 100 fold - not a literal amount, but of maturity and completion. It produced the highest and best it could because it had good soil. Today we use 10 or 100 in the same way. For example:On a scale of 1 to 10, how would you rate your interaction with our team member today? Or:How pretty is she (or handsome is he)? A 6 or 8? How do you like our product on a scale of 1 to 100? You aren't literally saying you found the number 10 or 100 as a mathematical formula, rather a representation of the highest and best. That's how Jesus was using percents. 
 
I read once somewhere about a farmer whose crop got hit by hail. But it wasn't a total loss, for he was able to harvest enough to pay the bank what he owed and live on for the next year. But all around him farmers were completely wiped out, unable to meet their loan payments. While the farmer was very disappointed with his crop, a friend pointed out he was in far better condition than any other farmer in the area, telling him he got a 100 fold return - he got the best return he could for the given circumstances. 
 
Let me say it another way. Sometimes because the situation is rocky, you will only get a 30 fold return - but that is the best you could do given the situation. Sometimes 'weeds' may have grown up to interfere with a transaction or family situation, giving you only 60 fold of what you wanted. But for the situation, 60 fold was the best you could do. You got the most out of it by God's grace that could be had for that situation. 
 
This kind of thing happens all the time in our lives - God's grace in difficult situations - and we need to start seeing that while we often don't get the fullness of the 'crop' we desired, we did by His grace get the fullness of what we could given the situation. It may be just 30 or 60 fold, but it was the highest and best possible outcome for the given situation. 
 
Can the devil hear your prayer language? (And is there a prayer language with which we speak to the devil?)
I Corinthians 13:1:"Though I speak in the tongues (languages) of men and angels, if I don't have love..." In Romans 8:26-27 we are told our infirmity is that we don't know how to pray as we should, so the Holy Spirit joins us so that we pray 'according to the will of God', speaking of tongues.  
 
A key point in that verse is that tongues is to the Father. It isn't to the devil. There are intense tongues spoken in intercession during which you know you are heavily interceding for someone and the Father uses that prayer to Him to help the oppressed be free of demonic forces and strengthened spiritually and emotionally, but the prayer is to the Father. I remember once seeing a famous TV preacher bringing someone on stage for deliverance and telling the crowd to stretch their hands towards the woman and pray in tongues 'against the devil'. Nope, that isn't what the New Testament says. Tongues goes to the Father. The devil doesn't shriek at the sound of your prayer language. He isn't afraid. To him, it's a language like any other of men or angels - from which he came. 
 
We might ask:Does the devil understand the words of an American, German, Chinese, Spanish or Italian? Yes, for the devil and his minions are all over the planet. So does he also understand languages of angels, from whom he fell? Yes, of course. If I move to Germany and need to speak German, I was raised with American English and will remember it. So what difference does it make if the devil understands what I am praying to the Father, whether in my native language or a heaven-given language I never learned? 
 
I asked the Lord in a visitation when He was teaching me some of these things:"Why tongues? It's so controversial and misunderstood." He replied (shortened):"If you can receive this, the earth was delegated to man, so for the most part the Father and I function by invitation in the earth. Though we retain our right as Creator. But man doesn't know how to pray as he should. The Father had to find a way to by-pass man's ignorance to get His will done on earth. He does this by giving a person a language they never learned, by-passing their ignorance, and filling that language with His will and His emotions and His desires, in their spirit. Then they pray it to Him, completing the loop and make the transaction legal. For truly, truly I tell you:No one will be able to bring accusation against us on that day. All will be revealed to have been done justly and in righteousness." 
 
That may be lots to think about, enough for today, I'll close the series next week. Until then, blessings,
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 
 
 

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Insights and understanding, 2 of 4, Wedding, outer darkness

2/14/2026

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​Hi all,
 
In the Parable of the Wedding Feast of Matthew 22:1-14 the guests are assembled, but one guest isn't wearing a wedding garment. When asked why, he is speechless. The order is given he be thrown out to the outer darkness where there is weeping and the gnashing of teeth. Jesus concludes saying:For many are invited, but few are chosen. 
 
The parable starts with:"The kingdom of heaven is like a certain king, who made a marriage for his son." Jesus is obviously talking about the Father and Himself. Verse 3 says:He sent servants to call them (it was time to start) who had been invited, but they would not come." In the first century it was custom for the host to send reminders of the great day approaching. Verses 4-5 tells us the king sent more servants, and told those invited about all the food and provision made for them; "But they made light of it." Literally; "They paid no attention to the invitation", and went back to their farms and jobs. 
 
In verses 6-7 it says some of those people even treated the messengers horribly and even killed some. The king was angry and sent His armies to kill those who had murdered his servants and destroyed their city. This is an obvious reference to the treatment (Old Testament) prophets had received at the hands of unbelieving Jews of Israel. So the king in verses 8-10 instructs his servants to invite those who had not been originally invited (Gentiles in the parable), and he said, the good and the bad were invited. 
 
In verses 11-12 the king notices someone there without a wedding garment and asks how he got there. The man was speechless. 
 
Wedding garments in the orient
It was the custom of the day for a king hosting a wedding or a host in a 'regular' wedding, to provide a light linen outer coat to all guests. This custom persists in modern form in China where guests are often provided wedding coats or other gifts by the bride and groom to show appreciation for them coming to their wedding. In Jesus' day kings and 'regular' weddings, the host provided a light linen coat so all guests would be properly clothed and equal being all dressed the same, no matter their social status. The wearing of the provided wedding garment showed at the wedding there was no rank, no social status, the king or host was making all equal for the happy day, so all could mix and mingle freely. 
 
The man without such a wedding garment stood out, making it clear he had tried to come to the wedding of his own accord. This is symbolic of a person trying to work their way into heaven, into the Marriage Supper of the Lamb. The man was given the opportunity to confess but he was silent. "Let the redeemed of the Lord say so" from Psalm 107:2 states, but the man was silent. He wasn't redeemed yet tried to get into (heaven) the wedding feast on his own. Romans 10:9-10 which came long after Jesus' parable in Matthew, also says we believe with our heart but confession to salvation is made with our mouth. The man was silent, meaning not saved. 
 
Outer darkness
The king then arrested him and had him thrown out into 'outer darkness' where there is weeping and the gnashing of teeth. In those day as in many parts of the world today, there are no street lights. The wedding banquet was fully lit with many oil lamps, but they did not light the streets. The term 'outer darkness' was a first century term used when someone was kicked out of a business or home, meaning 'kicked to the street' or 'kicked to the curb' we might say. They had been in the place of light and found themselves thrown out into the darkness, the term 'weeping and gnashing of teeth' was a term for that person being quite angry. Update it to modern terms and think of a person thrown out of a pub, bar, or restaurant and out on the street cursing and spitting in anger at his fate. But it was his own actions that caused others to throw him out. 
 
In the parable it is a picture of the unsaved, on the outside looking in to those who readily accepted both the invitation AND the wedding garment the host had provided. 
 
You may recall in Genesis 3:21 the Lord God made coats of skins for Adam and Eve, covering their (sin) nakedness. Ephesians 5:27 says for husbands to love their wives as Christ does the church, that He might present it to Himself 'without spot or wrinkle' on our garments. In The Revelation 19:7-14 it say of the believers in heaven at the Marriage Supper of the Lamb:"To them was given fine linen clean and white. For the linen is the righteousness of the saints." These same saints in v14 still clothed in their wedding clothes accompany the Lord on horses at Armageddon at His return.
 
Many are invited but few are chosen
I mentioned above the custom of the host sending out reminders before the day of the wedding feast. Upon acceptance it is understood the guests arrive and are given the wedding garment. This means the chosen are those who accept AND comply with the condition of attending. They choose to accept the invitation and are therefore chosen to be allowed in - whereas the man who refused the wedding garment and refused to confess was thrown out. Many are invited, but few of the invited comply with the invitation's requirements. True believers in Jesus have both accepted the invitation AND complied with the condition. Consider the famous John 3:16:God so loved the world He gave His only begotten Son, that all who believe in Him will have eternal life. The invitation is there for God invited us by giving us His Son. The requirement is to believe in that Son. The invitation is given, but few will comply with the requirement within the invitation. 
 
The cross in the desert
As Israel starts its march across the desert the Lord gives them very specific instructions about how they are to travel. Their general direction is east, having come from Egypt and going east to Israel. In Numbers 1:50 He says to 'camp around the tabernacle' behind family standards, with Levites in the center. The tabernacle with the cloud of day and pillar of fire by night was at the very center of the camp. Chapter 2 has God's instructions on which tribe travels on which side of the tabernacle as they march forward. In v3-9 the Lord says the "east side toward the rising of the sun' will be Judah, Issachar, and Zebulun, totaling 186,400. This is the majority of the population, making it a long column as they marched behind tribal standards. 
 
The north and south sides were roughly equal. The south tribes were Reuben, Simeon, and Gad for 151,450. The north was Dan, Asher, and Naphtali for 157,600. These were like 2 pillars or arms proceeding from the central tabernacle, even as Judah, Issachar and Zebulun were the long leg of 186,400 extending far east. On the west was the fewest of all, comprised of Ephraim, and half tribes of Manasseh and Benjamin, for 108,100. If you look at this from the air, it makes a perfect cross, with Judah leading the way towards as the Lord said, the rising of the sun. 
 
Another cross...
Nearly 1000 years later Judah finds itself captive in Babylon, most of the population having been captured and transported there by Nebucadnezzar. Those include Daniel and Ezekiel. Some quickly fall away from their faith, while others remain faithful. In Ezekiel 9:4 the Lord tells Ezekiel to go and put a mark on the heads of those who cry out when they see the sins of their brethren, marking them as belonging to God. The word 'mark' is 'tav' or 'taw' and was expressed differently through the centuries, but often as an + or X. 
 
Marks on the forehead (or wrist) were later used by Rome when they took slaves, taking away their name and tattooing a number on their head or wrist. The 666 of The Revelation communicates that those who receive that mark are slaves of that economic and political system. In Romans 16:22-23 we learn who received dictation from Paul for the letter to the Romans:"I Tertius who wrote this letter greet you...Erastus the Treasurer of the city greets you, and Quartus, a brother." 
 
Paul wrote to the Romans from Corinth, for the name Erastus was discovered there stating he was in fact the Treasurer of the city. The name 'Tertius' is the Roman number 3, and Quartus is the Roman number 4, showing in Christ socio-economic status means nothing, for the great apostle had working with him the Treasurer and two slaves - amazing grace. 
 
More next week, until then, blessings,
John Fenn
cwowi.org and email me at [email protected]
 
 
 

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